Life with two

The guilt is back in full force. No matter how much you give of yourself it is never enough. Life with two does not double the amount of effort you give or divide your time and attention in half, it exponentially creates it's own amount of work. The first week home was really hard for Charlotte. Besides the fact that she was so sick when we got home from the hospital, she had a really hard time adjusting to the fact that Mommy was going to spend so much time with the baby (especially when you have to feed them every two hours!) and that Daddy was going to be her main caregiver for awhile. Her initial reaction was to completely shun me. She didn't want me to touch her, help her, pick our her clothes, nothing. She wanted to do everything by herself and would have a complete melt down when she couldn't. She has never been a morning person, but when I walked in to get her up one morning she literally yelled at me "Get out! I don't want you!". Talk about heartbreaking!

Literally one morning she just woke up and was the sweetest little girl again. As soon as she saw me that morning she ran and gave me a hug and was a huge helper with the baby for the rest of the day. It's like she just had a moment where she realized this is our new normal and had to figure out where she fit into it. She LOVES the baby now. She wants to kiss her head and her feet any time possible, and she is the cutest thing when she talks to Emily. She has this sing song voice and it is so funny to hear her say what I say to the baby. Both girls have grown so much in the last month in their own ways. Charlotte is turning out to be an AMAZING big sister.


This picture pretty much sums up life with two. Constantly multitasking. Constantly entertaining. Trying to show some love to the baby while not making the big kid feel left out. Whew, it can be exhausting!


Charlotte is holding up a mirror so baby can see herself.


Charlotte is coloring her valentine's while Emily "watches" her and doses.


I was trying to take a picture of the baby in our big green chair and Charlotte jumped in. I used to have to BEG her to pose for a picture!


Great big sister in action! Charlotte is reading Emily's valentine card to her!